Warning: this blog is a little bitchy and angst-ridden...So I'll be offline for the next few days. My surgery is tomorrow (look! I already have my pretty plastic bracelet!) and I'm trying really hard not to freak out. It's not the surgery itself that scares me, but the anesthesia. I hate being under, I hate being on a ventilator because my lungs will be paralyzed, I hate loss of control, I hate that general anesthesia always carries the risk of death. Matt has instructions on what to do if I don't wake up, but that really gives me no peace of mind...
I'm cooking myself a big pot of Italian wedding soup today to eat over the weekend (last time I had surgery my throat was so sore from the vent tube, I could only eat soft foods for about a month) and trying to get some laundry and cleaning done. I hurt my shoulder last night and I'm not allowed any pain meds because they can interfere with bleeding. So I get to go to the gym today in pain, and with this goofy hospital bracelet on my arm. Fun stuff.
Hyperventilating? Me? What gave you that idea?
*deep breath*
Okay... on another subject... here's an amazing video:
I mean, not only is it Johnny Cash, but Bono, the Dixie Chicks, Johnny Depp... could there be a more perfect video? (I think not!) I even love the song. Yep... I've definitely been cut down, as of late.
Wish me luck. I'll be back sometime next week... hopefully.
xoxo
4 comments:
Good Luck!! Will miss you big time and will be thinking of you :-) the soup sounds DELICIOUS one of my favorites :-)
Good Luck, I love ya bunches. It will all be worth it, all this crazy stuff we have to do, but look at what the end result could be!!!!! Best Wishes Cuz!!!
good luck sweetie! can't wait till you're recovered and you blog all about it!
My phone should be back to operational tomorrow; if it isn't, there's always the dingle if you need me. Positive thoughts and stuff...
Love,
Rach
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